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“When He giveth quietness…”
The quietness of tonight – the moon rising between the trees around our driveway – the soft lights of the patio – made for the perfect evening. The clouds had finally cleared a way for me to see the moon and enjoy it for a short time – at least until the mosquitoes got a little too nippy.
It was a busy day. Best of all – I think I’m in love with my new computer. It is smaller. The key action seems perfect for aging fingers. The transition was relatively easy. Bad thing?
I still can’t access my files.
The I’ve been in the midst of re-writing some blog posts from a couple years ago that cover a 1942 prayer journey called “Rations 100 Days”. The messages appear timeless, and just like the first time I spent 100 days in prayer over this booklet, the “rations” seem to speak to my life in 2019.
God winks and gratitude fills my eyes with happy tears.
“When He giveth quietness, who then can make trouble?”~Job 34:29
These tiny “rations”, tailored made to ride in a military pocket, were written when a new war was tearing apart the world once again. A war that killed more than we want to remember. There are many numbers in this life that we choose to ignore – those killed driving a car or killed mining for lithium or killed in abortion or killed in natural disasters. It is a world filled with selfishness, division, danger and strife. But today’s “ration” reminds its reader that all of it – all the narcissism, fear, hatred and tribulation – is external when we know the Father. And when we turn the chaos over to Him on a daily basis we find His peace – even though we might need to do this on a minute-to-minute basis.
“Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on Him.”~Is 26:3
Carbonite is still running in the background. 8 hours of downloading and sitting at only 15%. Dang – I have a lot of stuff stored on my computers and even when it is done, I will probably have to call to have them help me access it all easily. I’m fairly tech oriented but not at all savy. Especially will miss my files again when I go to attach a picture or two to this post. Then again, it is just an external annoyance as the “ration” author pointed out so many years ago.
That gift of inner peace – well it has been with me all day as I got a hug from one of my GCA students – laughed with a friend in a phone conversation – “talked” with several OH friends who wanted to remind me how loved I am – and had a Father who pulled aside the clouds for the Lab girls and me to watch the “almost” full moon rise in the East.
Rations for 100 Days may have been written almost 80 years ago, but just like the “Book of Life”, its message still circles me and enriches my life beyond measure.
“I am leaving you with a gift—peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid.”~Jn 14:27
“If someone ventures a word with you, will you be impatient? But who can keep from speaking? Think how you have instructed many, how you have strengthened feeble hands. Your words have supported those who stumbled; you have strengthened faltering knees. But now trouble comes to you, and you are discouraged; it strikes you, and you are dismayed. Should not your piety be your confidence and your blameless ways your hope?”~ Job 4:2-6
There has been only quiet and emptiness. The sky thunderously dark and empty of light mocked the brightness of previous days, and the night withheld its dim beauty. Job knew this period of life well. Many of us know this period of life.
“Jabez cried out to the God of Israel, “Oh, that you would bless me and enlarge my territory! Let your hand be with me, and keep me from harm so that I will be free from pain.” And God granted his request.”~1 Chron 4:10
When I get full of myself, I have this crazy tendency to pray this simple prayer by a man only mentioned one time in the Bible. A man that had his prayer answered. I always think, “Ok, I’ve grown a lot in the past few years, right, Father? Expanding my territory will mean that it will be much easier than the last time I prayed this prayer, right?”
It never is. In fact, it is always a little more challenging. It is why I have only prayed this prayer 3 times. Right now – I don’t know if I will ever be brave enough to pray it again – but then again – I have said this before.
It is a prayer that – for me – tears off the veils that I have used to cover all those weak areas in my life that are buried so deeply that most of the time I can pretend they don’t exist.
And even – those states that exist so far beyond my logical understanding that I have no words for them. The good news?God knows them – knows of their existence – even if I don’t, and He strips the veils away to expand my territory in Him.
In January I prayed. God answered…as He always does. Territory expanded and…as always…a blessed period of rest begins. A tiny flower of clarity. A deep breath that I had been holding for almost six months. And a whole bunch of Grace shining so brightly that I almost feel ready to stand up and begin my journey again.
“You will go out in joy and be led forth in peace; the mountains and hills will burst into song before you, and all the trees of the field will clap their hands.”~Is 55:12
Four weeks ago, just before my scheduled trip to NYC with the daughters, I was still struggling. This test had been longer and more intense than the other two times, and I was tired – – – very tired. It was then He woke me up in the middle of the night and gave this verse in Isaiah. The darkness was pushed back to reveal the stars that had been there all along.
It was time to step out in joy and let Him lead me forth in peace. The mountains continue to sing as the trees clap their hands and I am looking forward to starting a new adventure. I get to be a librarian again. It looks like I will end my working career the way I started it long ago when I was a page in the Loudonville library. I also get to work in a new Christian school that is just starting in NC.
A small room.
A few shelves of books.
A chance to help build a room in Our Father’s house – – – “…on earth as it is in heaven.”~Matt 6:10b
There are mountainous songs circling and trees clapping.
Can you hear them?
We beat the gate-keeper to the lake this morning. I knew I wouldn’t have a lot of time to let the girls (our labs =) ) swim and walk this morning (since I had appointments to keep), so I wanted to make sure to take advantage of every minute. It was worth it. 73 degrees, a slight breeze and happy, barking dogs – life doesn’t get much better and I was glad the gate-keeper was on time.
“Thou shalt also decree a thing, and it shall be established unto thee..” Job 22:28a
But as I watched all the beauty around me, I kept thinking about the 3 teenagers killed in Israel. 18 days missing and buried today. Earlier today I read and shared a post by an Israeli woman. She talked about how the number 18 in Hebrew is equivalent to the word “chai” which means “life”. Needless to say, that one little sentence has been revisiting my thought process throughout the day. A dat spent reading a new book, waiting for the doctors to say I am a perfectly healthy 63 year old – enjoying the freedom to drive around and purchase things I “needed”.
Just – Life.
I think I have a pretty great one, and I am more and more thankful for it everyday. As I stood by the water watching the girls fetch their sticks, two pure white birds flew low over us. They were not the typical sea gulls that are often swirling over the lake, but they were also bigger than the white doves we occasionally see. I don’t know what they were, but they were beautiful. Even the dogs looked up as they were swimming, sticks in mouths, towards me. It’s one of those times I wish I was more like mom. She would have had a camera ready and snapped it. As they disappeared into the shelter of the woods, Israel and America popped into my mind.
Two countries founded upon a faith in one God. Three boys: Two Israelis and 1 American. Two countries tied together by faith. Three boys of different countries tied together by friendship and faith.
The older I get, the less I’m inclined to believe in “quinky-dinks” as my dad and mom used to say. Jewish wisdom looks at every “jot and tittle” as they study the WORD. They believe that nothing – not a dot – not a word – not a repetitive story – in the WORD is just a coincidence. They give God so much more credit than we -people of the new covenant – have done. In fact, we pretty much ignore the OT except for a few stories that we find relevant. We tend to forget that Jesus was totally Jewish and knew the WORD down to every “jot and tittle”. He often repeated the wisdom of the OT in His teachings.
“”Truly I tell you, whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven.” Matt 18:18
I guess with all these thoughts roaming through my busy day, I wasn’t surprised when this last verse popped up in my devotions tonight. Did you notice the reference? 18:18. Did you notice that Jesus repeated a verse in Job? Life. Prayer. Faith. The gate-keeper is standing by the gate.
A Caliphate is proclaimed.
Three boys are buried.
I don’t know thy these things continued to claim my attention today or why I feel so compelled to write about all of it. I only know I am called to circle these thing in prayer, be faithful to what He calls me to do, and offer thanks for all the promises that He faithfully keeps each and every day. I am blessed…and watching for the gate-keeper to open the gates.